Monday, March 31, 2014

Monday

Each week feels a little more normal. Trying for some type of routine. Trying to exercise and eat right starting this week. Last weeks goal was to exercise, and I managed 3 days. Which honestly is a huge step forward. So this week I'm trying for 6 days, or at least 4. One step at a time. The house is coming along too. This weekend we made some headway. It feels like a full time job that we are only able to do on the weekends. Some pics until I have time to write. Which may be never, seeing how my actual job and this house consume my every waking hour, along with my child, my husband and my dog, in no particular order...
'Rita', that's what we named her 


The Boys cleaning the pool

The Toot and Best Friend

The Toot spontaneously napping on the lounge chair outside

Barn-dog and the chair Grandma gave The Toot for Christmas. We call it the Hummingbird chair, cause the Tootie sits in it and watches all the hummingbirds at theh feeder.

Wednesday, March 26, 2014

what happened

So here's what happened. I got promoted to Producer. I bought a house. I moved. I'm adjusting to all this. Here's some pictures from the recent months in no particular order...



moving makes me and Barnaby want to sleep
The Toot likes the new house
Husband likes having a wood burning fireplace
A little bit of Dad time in the new casa
The Toot can now pick flowers from the yard.
Heres what 38 looks like
Heres what plumber found in my new bathtub drain, it's a braid and I don't think its mine...
Me at Calarts recruiting kids, when did college students become kids in my mind and how on earth am I able to recruit anyone?
The Toot getting hives from all the changes, poor baby.
the hives got worse and Momas heart broke even more...









Wednesday, September 4, 2013

Humpday

Wednesday and counting down to girls weekend....here's my life right now in bits and pieces until I have time again to write...





Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Daily posts

Ok. I've been working, living, trying to manage. But now its time to reconnect. so here it goes. Daily posts of whatever I have. One liners.

Todays post: pictures only.







Sunday, February 24, 2013

Chaos


When you have kids Chaos is just part of the norm. It's taken me a long time to get used to it. Now I'm working on the next level, enjoying it. It seems almost insane to say that I'm trying to enjoy Chaos, because it's like saying you want to enjoy a tornado, but for me this is something I know I have in me to do. I know there is an adventuresome spirit inside me that loves the craziness of a full life. The problem is my life is so full, it's spilling over the edges. For example yesterday morning: Husband was in the bedroom doing a work out video. The bedroom door was open and he was also periodically running throughout the house to use a pull up bar he had attached to the kitchen door frame, as well as a chair he was using in the hallway (don't ask). This video lasted for an hour and a half. We would occasionally see sweaty Husband bypass us in the hallway grunting while doing push ups or hanging from the kitchen doorway doing pull ups. While this was happening 3 year old was crawling around on hands and knees with a dog toy in his mouth pretending to be a puppy. Simultaneously to all this, our actual 80 pound puppy is running back and forth from the back patio into the house with a gallop and speed of a dressage horse. I do my rounds while I tidy up, checking on all the males in my home in their personal realms of Chaos when I realize that the dog has not only found the neighbors doormat to shred into pieces, but has also pushed their front door open and is about to wander inside when I catch him. This is the type of Chaos I'm talking about. 

Now something I've realized in this learning process is that it never lasts too long. My tolerance is still not high enough yet to outlast the Chaos, but I'm working on it. Knowing when to hold em, fold em, or walk away has been optimal to the learning process. It all kind of comes in waves, and if you can just hang on, eventually you will be lifted up and out to dry land. Like right now for instance; I'm happily typing away on our new lap top, while the dog is laying in a sunny spot on the patio, 3 year old is in his room playing by himself and Husband is doing laundry. So there is beauty in all of this, it's just about having the patience to get there. Phew, and I'll tell ya-I'm not sure I'm gonna make it, but at least I'm trying.

Friday, February 22, 2013

Demon spawn


Last night around 2:30am I dreamt that a door was opening and closing, opening and closing. There was this never ending cycle, a relentless opening and closing of a single door. I've been going through some major transitions in my life-new job beginning in a week from now, old job ending. A new life starting after 8 years. These types of dreams are pretty normal for me. My brain is very Freudian and obvious in most ways. When I graduated high school I dreamt every night for a month that my teeth were falling out. 

I was awakened from this opening and closing door dream to the sound of Husband exclaiming: "What the hell?!" I suddenly realized that the opening and closing of a door was not a dream, but was coming from the house, our house, inside our house. Husband got up to investigate. I figured if someone should be killed by a murderer opening and slamming a door, it was best that it was Husband and not me. 

It turned out to be our 3 year old. He had left his bedroom for the first time in the middle of the night! He is a baby no more. It's been a while since we changed him over from his crib to his big boy bed. It's also been a while since we took the fancy door handle that he couldn't open from inside his room off, and yet this was the first time he felt the need to leave his room in the middle of the night to explore the nocturnal world. Why now we wondered? His first adventure in this new world consisted of standing outside his bedroom, opening and slamming his bedroom door. It all felt very confusing at the time. Husband suspects that after 3 year old decided to leave his room that he wanted to be tidy about it, so he promptly shut the door after himself. Unfortunately the door to his bedroom doesn't always shut properly, so Husband figures he was slamming it over and over trying to get it to latch. 

In my 2am stupor I came to the the private conclusion that 3 year old was probably possessed by some ghost devil in our house like one of those creepy children from a horror movie. The movie you tell yourself not to watch, and then when you do, it sticks with you for the rest of your life and you can never quite look at twins the same way with out grimacing. You see, I am terrified of 3 year leaving his room at night. Not because I am worried that my baby will get hurt exploring the house alone without being supervised, but because the thought of stumbling upon a 2 and half foot tall person in the hallway when I am trying to find my way to pee in the dark seems horrifying to me for some reason. Chalk it up to too many scary movies I suppose.

When I ask Husband what 3 year wanted he simply said: "he wanted milk". What? Was he going to get it himself? Was he on his way to come get us? We will never know. As Husband climbed back into bed at the wee hours of the morning he sighed " and thus it begins..." I couldn't help but wonder if he meant a ritual haunting of our house and that we should probably busy ourselves hooking up prison style cameras in every room, or the fact that this was probably the beginning of 3 year old entering our room while we slept to demand various liquids to drink at odd hours.

Wednesday, February 6, 2013

25 things


I learned about myself in recent years:

1. I like rules, even as a young punk rock girl I struggled with the concept of anarchy, it never sat well with me.

2. I like things to be neat and tidy-This is a sticking point between me and Husband because he is a neat freak and I am not, but I still really truly do like for things to be organized!

3. I'm an introvert. This explains a lot about my life, and I wish I had known this personality type had a name, and what that name really meant years and years ago.

4. I like that I am different then most people-it's been a long road of acceptance, but I came to the end of it and really relished what I found.

5. I love gossip and I'm OK with that.

6. I'm high maintenance, which to me means: I know what I want.

7. I can chose what I like quickly. Unlike most people I have a gift for seeing what I like instantly and feeling confident that it is the right choice for me.

8. I love eating and will always love eating, and will forever have to watch what I eat because I love eating so much!

9. I really enjoy TV. In maybe an unhealthy way, and I'm also OK with that. I probably wouldn't make it without cable TV, and I don't ever ever want to try.

10. I LOVE to cook and I'm good at it, mostly because I can follow instructions (recipes) well.

11. I'm an athlete. If you had told me this in college, I would have laughed.

12. It will never get easier for me to be a parent. I will always worry my face off every day.

13. I like diets and exercise just as much as I hate them. I'm a little bit of a masochist like that.

14. I dislike change in a deep gut churning kind of way, but I'm able to get over it.

15. I'm good at being a wife, I never expected this, but it naturally suits me.

16. I have an uncanny ability of remembering what clothes people wore. Like an idiot savant I can tell you what everyone in my office was wearing yesterday in detail. It wasn't until recently that I realized other people can't do this.

17. I like to teach people, just about whatever stuff I know that they seem interested in learning.

18. I have really bad posture, I'm working on it.

19. I'm not awesome when I am not familiar in a situation. This is another fun trait of being an introvert.

20. I really like when I am the best at stuff.

21. I love routine and feel in my prime when I have steady solid routines in my life.

22. It takes me a long time to trust and love, I don't give my heart away... unless you're Ryan Gosling, and in that case- TAKE IT, NOW!

23. I'm not as vain as I used to be, but I will always be a Diva.

24. I'm not as cool as I used to be, and I'm growing to accept this. As long as I'm not wearing Mom jeans I feel like it's gonna be alright.

25. The older I get, the less I want to live in a big city.




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I'm a working Mom to a Toddler, a messy wife to a neat freak and a 6 foot tall Glamazon triathlete who went to art school. If Lucille Ball and Laverne and Shirley had a Goth love child thats who I'd be.